Start a Fire in My Soul!

There’s no question that I’ve been struggling for the past few months, I’ve posted about my anxiety and how life in general is just throwing us for a loop as a family lately. As awful as some days have been… God reminded me today how incredibly blessed I am.

First, I got to see this sweet Baby Bird at my final ultrasound this morning!

She has Boogie’s little lips and nose! She was SO good for us this time and cooperated so well that the entire ultrasound only took about 25 minutes. Everything was clear, no bright spots on her heart or liver, she is completely healthy and right on track with her growth! It was such a beautiful relief.

Then… after making a pit stop at my parents we headed back towards J’s work and this song came on:

These lyrics hit me like a ton of bricks… it was like God was saying “WAKE UP! I’M HERE! LEAN ON ME!”

Start a fire in my soul
Fan the flame and make it grow
So there’s no doubt or denying
Let it burn so brightly
That everyone around can see
That it’s You, that it’s You that we need
Start a fire in me

I was in tears, HAPPY tears. Do you know how long it’s been since this momma had HAPPY tears? God is good… even when our world seems dark and as if it’s caving in around us. I hope that everyone can see His light in me, I want that more than anything. So… Lord… start a fire in me…